There are times when you are hurt so badly that the pain encompasses you and you can’t think about anything other than it. It overcomes you and it becomes you. And so you try to numb it and distract yourself from whatever is hurting. People have all kinds of different methods of coping with the misery. Maybe its drugs, or alcohol. Partying or throwing yourself into school or work. Replacing the boy that made your heart break with different ones.
Something inside is hurting you – that’s why you need cigarettes or whiskey, or music turned so loud you can’t think.
Sleeping, crying. Numbing yourself. Making yourself forget.
She likes to sleep. It makes her forget about it.
You see, it is fear that causes us to do this, to deceive ourselves. We are afraid of facing what ever hurt us. I mean it hurt us! Why would we willingly choose to approach something that made us feel horrible. It’s just much easier to pretend it never happened, to ignore the heartbreak. It’s much more simple and painless. Or at least, that’s what we led ourselves to believe.
Most of us like to believe that it hurts less to be empty. But on the contrary, its not healthy to avoid your problems with mind-numbing things. Sure, its okay if you want to distract yourself for a couple nights, have some fun. But when you are living this empty and dull life where you aren’t truly living, only surviving, then its time to face the music. And I know it seems terrible and awful and scary. However, you can’t really forget about the pain unless you come into terms with and accept it.
Don’t drown yourself in alcohol and think that it’s going to make everything better. Yes, downing bottles of tequila is going to make you forget, but only for a little while. Its completely temporary. Sooner or later, you’re are going to realize that the pain never really went away, that it’s still there and its making hard for you to breathe.
And you might feel like the distractions are the only things keeping you alive but you shouldn’t think that self-deception is healthy. You are lying to yourself! Think about it, you are not treating yourself the way you should be. You deserve better than this.
So just relax and remember that its okay to be sad and miserable sometimes. We are only human. How would happiness be measured if we didn’t know the pain of sadness. See its just the way of life, you need balance. I mean sunshine all the time makes a desert too.
In the end you will be okay. Actually you will be more than okay! Sometimes it hard to look past the rain to see the sun, but I promise you that it’s there and it always will be. So don’t give up. Don’t stop feeling.
An arrow can be shot only by pulling it backward. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means that it’s going to launch you into something great.
So just take a deep breath and keep aiming.
Listen kid, here are the rules:
1. Don’t shut down. You have to feel pain because once you turn it off, you can’t get it back. And then you’re left prying open your veins and breaking your bones, drowning in vodka, choking on pills, bleeding out, swallowing cigarettes, meeting boys who rip your heart out of your chest and slam it against the wall and then smile at you like you’re the prettiest thing in the room. It turns out that feeling nothing feels worse than anything else.
2. Cut him out of your life. It doesn’t matter how many times he called you beautiful and told you he loved you. I know he was a sweet guy but he’s not the same person anymore. He hurt you. He doesn’t deserve to occupy a thought in your head let alone drown you in your own tears. I know you loved him. Maybe you always will. But if you want to stay alive, you’ve got to let him go. Delete your old texts with him because baby I swear to god you will read over all the “I love you’s” and “baby girl’s” and you will crack your ribs with them.
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